|Est Sularus Oth Mithas
||[Sep. 29th, 2004|10:29 pm]
|||||Simple Man - Skynnrd||]|
A code to live by, though very few will know what it means. I'm up very late, can't sleep. I know I need to get up early tomorrow, but for some reason I can't get my mind to stop working and go to sleep. For the past couple of days, I have been making no sense of anything or to anyone. I apologize for that. I don't know what is up with me recently (actually thats a lie, but if you don't know whats going on, contact me and I may tell you, I don't feel like putting it in my journal) I have no idea if any of this entry is going to make any sense to anyone, including myself, after it has been written. I don't know what to do right now. But for some reason, my mind has been distracting me from everything on my mind by causing one thing to drive me. I have decided I want to be the strongest, scariest, most deadly son of a bitch I know. I guess my subconcious is figuring if that happens, I won't be able to be hurt anymore, and for all of you that read this and think about it as I am not going to feel anything anymore, thats not what I said, so don't bother saying it. I have just been having serious "mood swings" for lack of a better term. If I'm busy and my mind and body are swamped I am fine, if not, well thats where these thoughts have come in. I don't even know why I write in this journal, or if anyone even cares about what I think or do, so ya know, this whole entry could just be a waste of what little time I have on this planet. Oh well, fuck it, its making me feel good. I don't knwo what I am going to do, or how I am going to do it, so...oh fuck it I lost my train of thought, I'm going to go get some sleep now. Comment if you feel the need or the whim.
The best leasons are learned through hardship.
The best rewards are earned with pain.
Bleeding lets you know you're alive.
Making someone bleed lets you know you're alive and well.
Mind, Body, and Soul Dedicated to a Purpose.